My Amnesia Girl

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I love Toni Gonzaga, the characters she had portrayed and her songs. She's a really talented person. Indeed, she deserves to be called the 'Ultimate Multimedia Star'.  Her recent movie MY AMNESIA GIRL with John Lloyd Cruz, had been so successful that she had been labeled as the 'Queen of Romantic Comedy Films'.  

From the moment I saw the trailer of My Amnesia Girl, I already told myself that I will watch it. Some lines may be a bit corny and overused, but there was this inkling that there's something more. When I finally saw the movie, I wanted to watch it again. The movie was romantic with a spice of comedy and a zest of drama. The most romantic parts of the movie for me was Irene's birthday where Apollo gave her an extraordinary birthday party and the part where Apollo posted TOO MANY memo notes on Irene's house, with each memo containing a reason why he loves her. 


Here are some of the cheesy lines of the movie:

♥♥♥

Alam mo, baka di ka na makauwi.
Bakit?
Eh kasi nasa isip na kita. 

♥

Alam mo kung bola ka baka di kita mai-shoot?

Dahil lagi mo ako mamimiss?
♥
Ulan ka ba? Kasi lupa ako, sa ayaw at sa gusto mo sa akin ang bagsak mo.
♥ 
Lumiit ka ba? Dati kasi hanggang ulo kita, pero ngayon nasa puso na kita.
♥ 
Para kang tae… Di kita kayang paglaruan.

♥
May mmda ba dito? nagkabanggaan kc mga puso natin!!!
♥  
Mahal kita,
Sana pirated CD ka nalang para paulit-ulit mong sabihin ‘yan.
Mahal kita. Mahal kita. Mahal kita. Mahal kita.
♥
lumabas ka ba kagabi?
huh? hindi!
wala ka kasi sa panaginip ko kagabi eh..
 ♥
Bumili ka na ng salbabida..
bakit? magsu-swimming tayo?
hindi! baka malunod sa pagmamahal ko
♥ 
Asan ka kagabi ?
andito lang ako...bakit ?
Kaya pala wala ka sa panaginip ko
 ♥
Kandidato ka ba ?
Huh? hindi
Boto kasi tatay ko sayo eh.
♥ 
Kung ikakasal ka saan mo gusto? Ako kasi sa tabi mo.
♥ 
Ihi ka ba?  Hindi kasi kita matiis eh.
 ♥
Irene: Sino ako?
Apollo: Ikaw si Irene ko. Ikaw ang mapapangasawa ko. Photographer ka.
Irene: Mali. Pulis ako. Ikaw kasi ang most wanted ko.
 ♥♥♥

I'm Still in Love With You

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It’s funny how you can make me smile even though you’re miles away. It’s funny how just by being online and posting something, though it doesn’t concern me at all, completes my day. What’s even more amazing is the fact that I had kept my feelings for you unknown to my friends, which is so not me, because I used to tell my friends almost everything about me. Honestly, you are the first person I’ve fallen in love with that only in my poems had I revealed my feelings for you. 
Sometimes I wonder if you ever noticed me or if I ever cross your mind. Sometimes I’d like to believe what some of my friends kept telling me:that you also like me too. But I knew that would be really far from coming true… How could someone like you ever come to notice Miss Ordinary in the World of Extraordinary?
Despite the fact that I had already forced myself to forget you, I just can’t move on. Maybe it’s not yet time to let you go even though I know that you’re in love with someone else. Maybe I’m not yet prepared. Because I still remember perfectly the moments I spent with you, though it’s not as important for you as it is for me…
Staring at the lovely stars of the night sky, counting the days ‘til you’re here again. Wanting to catch even a glimpse of those mesmerizing eyes. I’m missing you…=(

Black Angel

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I am good, when you’re good to me. But I can be bad lalo na kung hindi na kita kayang tagalan. I can really be mean. Wala akong pakialam kung mapahiya ka for as long as I can take my revenge. And take note, once you’ve blown my trigger, forever in my heart, that hatred will stay. 

Oohh, by the way, I may be a child sometimes, and like a child, I can easily be affected by a single word. In short, I can be so pikon at times. At kapag napikon na ako, please, wag mo ng dagdagan yung kasalanan mo. Hindi ko alam kung anong masasabi ko sa iyo, but for sure, you wouldn’t like it. Another thing, I hate people who act as if they are perfect. For chrissake, nobody’s perfect, so don’t you dare think that I can act perfectly the same you as you.

By the way, I hate people who degrades other people, even if it was meant as a joke. Remember, jokes are half meant. 

Balik Tanaw sa Maghapong Pagbuhos ng Ulan

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Sana isang araw, magising na lang ako na wala ng nararamdaman para sa'yo. Dumating pa kaya ang araw na tuluyan mo nang lilisanin ang puso at isipan ko?

Buong maghapon nang umuulan. Malamig ang simoy ng hangin, marahil dala na rin ng kapaskuhan. Masarap sanang matulog, ngunit marami pang kailangang gawin. Bakit ba kasi bigla-bigla ka lang pumapasok sa isip ko? Mali ito, bulong ko sa aking sarili. Hindi na kita pwedeng hangaan. Hindi na kita pwedeng isipin. Hindi na kita pwedeng mahalin. Matagal ko nang alam at tanggap na siya ang nais mo, at ako? Isang ewang hindi malaman ko paano ka kalimutan.

Naaala ko pa nung minsan pumatak ang ulan at nakisilong ka sa payong ko. Ngayon sa pagpatak ng ulan, bigla ko lang naisip, mauulit pa kaya iyon? At bigla namang sinagot ang tanong ko. Hindi na! Nasa likuran lang nga kita pero mas pinili mong magpabasa sa ulan. 

Akala ko wala na akong nararamdaman para sa'yo. Ngunit ang mga kilos ko, pilit ko mang baguhin, sinasabi na mali ako. Sa ngayon, mas mabuti pang isipin ng lahat na wala na akong paghanga sa iyo, sa ganoong paraan, hindi ako gaanong maiilang sa tuwing ika'y malapit o matatakot na bigla na lang nila akong tuksuhin sa iyo. 

Sa maghapong pagbuhos ng ulan, bumuhos din ng bigla ang mga sentimento ko tungkol sa iyo. Pero sana, sa pagtila ng ulan,  makalimutan ko na rin na minsan, natutunan kong mahalin ang isang tulad mo.

Corinthians Christmas Party

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Today is our Christmas Party in our dorm. Sad to say, it's a conflict with the batch shirt modeling and awards night for this year's College of Management Foundation week. Well, the Killer Trio arrived late. We had to support our friends for the modeling. I wanted to stay longer but my ex roommate called to inform me that our Christmas party had already started. Anyways, the modeling part was already finished.

Extremely fun would be the best adjective that I can use to describe this year's Christmas party. Let's just say, that its a matter of laughing your hearts out and a friendly competition.
Regardless of whether we are from the 'lower' or 'upper' house, everyone enjoyed the foods and the games. 

About the gift I received? Well, it was far more than what I expected. It made me feel that I gave so little to my 'monita'. I feel like she's disappointed with the gift I gave her, but she can't blame it all to me. Oh, she gave me bear and a pillow. One of our dorm mate also received the same gift, but a different color. It made my roommates say that its like a package deal or something. Anyways, I'm really contented with what I received. I have a small problem now, though. I don't know what to name the bear yet. :(

About the College of Management thing, we won 2nd in the overall, 1st in modeling and 2nd in the play fest. I'm so proud of my friends. Congrats guys! Way to go T9:))

That's it for now. I need to sleep because I will be joining that f*cking fun run just for because its an alternative class. 


Exaggerated Story

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It’s nearly a year since we met
You used to remind me of someone from my past
I thought it was as simple as that
But you proved me wrong...
You were an updated version of him.

Being in the same class with you was my chance
I could get to know you better
But being close to you was out of my plan
It’s enough for me that you remember my name
Yet you’ve gone far beyond it

With your outgoing personality, charm and good looks
No one wouldn’t get to notice you,
And I was one of those girls who gave you extra attention
I started admiring you,
And even thought I was falling for you

By the time my first semester in college ended,
Almost all of my close friends knew about my feelings for you
They teased me even if you’re around
And it came to a point where I’ve been to naïve
That I almost admitted my admiration for you in your face

My friends seemed to be too preoccupied of making me blush
They’ve forgotten to ask the truth
None, no one, not even you, knew the extent of my admiration for you
Somehow, I was successful of despising them
Coz they never had a clue of the person I was really in love with

I was confused of my feelings for quite a long time
But everything was clarified when that someone special left…
I like you, that’s true,
But I’m not crazy in love with you
Neither can’t I stop dreaming and thinking about you

I may be attracted to you in some ways
Or give you some special attention
But it’s only until there
I admire you…
That’s it, End of the Story!

Reunited

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       Two years had passed. Two years of being separated from each other. Two years of developing new friendship and perhaps, romantic relationships. Two years of undeniably infrequent communication. Two years had changed things and people a lot. But after two years of living a new life...something remains unchanged:the friendship we cherished for more than 10 years.

       Different schedules and school location made seeing one another hard. But if you are given a chance to be reunited again in your beloved alma matter, why on earth will you let it slip away? And that's exactly what we had done. To be exact, 8 of us (out of the 23). 

      This year, Our Lady of Grace Academy is celebrating its 24th foundation anniversary. Since it's a Saturday, we decided to meet up. Some said they would come, yet never a shadow of them had we seen. Some had to mind some matters. While some simply didn't communicated with us. But some came and it made me so happy to see them.

       It's only day but we made a lot of memories. We talked and talked and talked about our lives, sort of catching up. Our teachers also asked us how we're doing and what are we up to. We had lunch together. Apparently, our rich and generous classmate treated us for lunch and the fares to Baybay. Thank God! I didn't have to spend much for it:) After eating, we did a lot of talking and laughing. It just felt so great. It reminded me of our years together...the times when we would laugh over someone's mistake or simple joke and even acting like a child.  Well, we went back to OLGA and spent the whole afternoon there. 

       Spending time with my high school friends makes me somehow regret studying far away from them. But I need to grow. I need to stay out of my comfort zone. Though, we may be far away, I have new friends that shares with me the burden of the UP life. 

       Two years had passed. But we survived it. True friendship does. I hope our friendship will be stronger and continue to stand the test of time and distance.



Happy much this weekend. Thanks to them:) I love and miss them so much.

Mental Block

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It's been quite a long while since the last time I've written a poem. This past few days, I've been wanting to write a new one. Unfortunately, I can't find a good inspiration. Something, perhaps, someone that would inspire me enough to finish a poem. I've had a hard time thinking what to write. I could start on the first stanza and that's all I can do. I don't know how to go on afterwards. 

I've been acting like this for months and I don't know why. Usually, if I'm in the mood to write a poem, I'll just listen to my favorite songs or read some old poems of mine, and there it goes, I could finish the poem. But my usual routine seems not be working these days. 

If I am to remember when this 'mental block' thing started, my memories will go back to that day when that someone special left. I don't want him to take full responsibility of what I'm going through since he probably doesn't care at all and since he left, a lot of wonderful things happened to me, except that I'm not inspired to write poems anymore. 

Anyway, I won't give up. Maybe one day I'll be inspired enough to write a new poem. And I'm hoping that day comes soon. 

All is Well

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I was really wondering why my friends kept on posting "All is well" as their status. Now, after watching 3 Idiots I finally understood it.

I really love the story of the 3 Idiots and I soo love Ranchhoddas Chanchad/Phunsukh Wangdu. He had a different view of life. He wanted to change the system. He saw excellence not just merely as a matter of getting high grades. He encourage people to pursue their dreams, to go where your heart leads you. Better marry the one you love, than have an affair with someone without love, only pretenses. He's right! How on earth will you excel in something you don't like? Someday, in your deathbed, you will regret the things you made especially when opportunity had knocked so hard on your door but you just ignored it. He had a passion for learning. He didn't let his status in life hinder him for learning. He would wear uniforms and attend classes without even enrolling in the school. In the end, his love for machines and unique view of life led him to be the Student of the Year and accept Virus' Pen. He was successful, true to his word, excellence will follow success. He won the bet against Silencer! He was Phunsukh Wangdu, who owns 400 patents.

I am amazed with the friendship of Rancho, Farhan and Raju. They would do everything for each other. 

I actually can't decide on the best and touching parts of the movie. So here's a short rundown of my favorite parts (most are parts where I cried):
  • The Hospital Scenes: when Rancho saved the life of Raju's  father by making him ride a scooter instead of an ambulance and Raju thanked Rancho for what he'd done, the part after Raju jumped of from the 3rd floor of the school and Rancho and Farhan are doing everything to make him better. 
  • The part when Pia told virus that his son didn't fell off the train, but instead committed suicide(which is murder, as what Rancho would call) because he's rather die than take the entrance exam to study engineering which wasn't his passion, Literature is.
  • The part when Virus gave the pen to Rancho
  • The scene where Farhan and Raju learned that Rancho isn't really Rancho but Phunsukh
  • The scene where Farhan, Raju and Pia found out where Phunsukh/Rancho was


When I watch movies, oftentimes I'll say afterwards that it wasn't worth my time and only a few would make me say the opposite. 3 Idiots made me give up around 2-3hrs of my time that I could have spent studying for my Hum1 exam tomorrow. But I don't have any regrets at all. It was worth it! I really enjoyed it. 

All is Well.
Gotta go! I need to study now. I just felt the urge to make this blog, if not, 3 idiots will definitely make me crazy and I won't be able to concentrate on my exam. :)


Another Vacant Afternoon

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I'm glad I have time to write this blog. I should be preparing for my Math100 (Calculus) class, but my classmate informed me that we wouldn't have class, AGAIN. 


I've been in love with Math for years. I always prioritize it. But this semester, I find it weird for my interest in the subject to slip.  I always make it a point not to be absent in Math classes before. But now, it's weird since I have been absent for 2 meetings, and it's not because I was sick (which was most common reason why I've had absences in my Math classes before). I just wanted to prioritize another subject of mine. That's new!

My Math teacher is actually very good. She is very considerate. But she's not that good in explaining matters regarding the subject, I think.

Also, she is ALWAYS absent, and I'm not use to teachers like that. Because of her absences, we are VERY late in our lessons. My other batch mates had taken their 3rd and 4th long exams, while we our class hadn't even finished discussing  elessons for our third long exams. Great!

Because we have to make up for the times she was absent, we have to meet this Saturday, which is my brother's birthday! Dammit! I will miss his birthday for the sake of our make-up class. And we are to have our 3rd long exam on SUNDAY! Imagine?! Sunday!

That's it. I have to go. My bed is calling for me. It's time for a nap:)

Swimming for a Passing Grade II

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I'm really desperate to learn swimming. I'm desperate not to get a 5 or an INC. So I enrolled myself in a swimming lesson ( with my not parents knowing it). Good thing, my teacher is a lot better than my PE teacher. The problem is, I can't learn the strokes perfectly within just 2 weeks. Yeah, its only 2 weeks 'til my finals in PE.  Adding insult to injury, I'm not a fast learner when it comes to sports, that's why I never really dreamed of being a sporty gal. 

I don't know what future awaits me after my final exams. But I just do hope, that I'll pass this swimming class of mine.:)I hope I can swim 4 lapses of the length of Sarabia's pool for each of the three different strokes. 

That's it for now. I'm feeling better after writing this. I still need to make that damn speech for my Econ11 class. 


Ohayou gozaimasu!

Too Bad for It Was Just a Dream

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Last night, I had a dream. At first, I thought it will be dream not worth replaying, but I was wrong.

I was in a familiar room with my classmates. I can't remember perfectly all the details from the start until the middle, but the scenes at the end made my heart beat fast. You were there, I can't remember if you were there from the start though. So what if you were there? It doesn't make sense at all to me, especially since I've moved on in reality. But my friends, still thinking I'm still in love with you, conspired to leave you and me, alone in the room. At first I haven't noticed it. Gosh I'm so stupid. But when I finally realized it, they closed the door and won't let me go. I really wanted to escape but you hold my hand and stopped me. We stayed inside for I don't know how many minutes, but something inside me twinged. It's like my heart wanted to scream something. But I just can figure it out.

And so I woke up. Not realizing that it was a dream. I almost thought it was real. It was then that I grasped why my heart twinged.All this time, I was wrong. I haven't moved on. A portion of my heart still belongs to you, not big enough as it was before. I miss you. Sometimes, there were those days that I wished we could cross paths. A simple hello, just like before, will make me happy, but not as happy as before. 

Sadly, until now, my heart can't decide who I love more, if it's you or him. Is it possible that the heart would beat for two different and entirely opposite individuals at the same time? It's been a long time and I'm still confused. My dreams of you makes me wish it was real, same as my dreams of him:(

Too bad it was just a dream. Why can't it come to reality? Oh! How I wish it would...

Swimming for a Passing Grade:(

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I have tons of things to do for tomorrow, so I need to charge my energy. I have a report for my Lit2 class, an exam in Hum1 and PRE-REGISTRATION for next semester. Ooohh..Unfortunately, my Lit2 class and the pre-reg starts at the same time. What should I do? I'll think about that later. Haha!

For now,I just feel the urge to create this blog, if not, my thoughts would distract me from studying for my exam in Hum1. 

I've always wanted to be engaged in some sports, but I wasn't given the skills. Like most schools, UPV requires us to take PE classes. There are various sports to choose from, but given the number of students wanting the slot, enrolling in the class you are really interested in is, for me, a matter of luck. Ok, what's my point? Originally, I wanted to enroll in Badminton class, but there aren't any,so I chose swimming(oh no!). I really want to learn how to swim, so I thought it was ok. Everything was ok, at first.

As classes begun, I realized I was the only one who doesn't know how to swim(too bad). Add to it, I'm a slow learner when it comes to sports. And now, as the semester is nearing its end, I'm facing a bad situation. I don't much about the strokes, and I don't think I can swim the length of Sarabia's swimming pool for 4 times, without stopping at the middle. Oops! Now I really smell danger. It's either I get a 5 or an INC. Either way, it won't be nice for me:( 

Oh God! Please help me! I really need to pass this Swimming class of mine:(

My Cardcaptor Sakura Picture Collection:)

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As I've said, I'm a great fan of CCS. So, as part of my obsession, I keep on searching, reading and downloading stuffs related to CCS. For the record, I've watched the whole anime 4 times, and the 2 CCS movies, despite the slow internet connection. That's how addicted I am. Plus, I have a complete picture of the clow cards, and lots of CCS pictures. I really don't know why I am addicted to CCS though. Here are some of my favorite CCS pictures.












Well,that's for now. It's almost 2 am. I need to rest. 
Oyasuminasai!:)

Aiming for 1.0

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        Living a life of pressures ain't that easy. You have to do this and that, just to impress those people who expect too much from you. People might say, "Why do you have to meet their expectations? You don't have to be somebody else for them to appreciate you." Well, they're right. But sometimes, pressure is good. They make you exceed your limits. They sort of challenge you to be better. And the reason why I want to meet their expectations is just simple: I just want to prove to myself that I can be better. 
       Well, studying in UP(gasp! UP) isn't at all easy. Terror teachers are around to give you that heartbreaking 5.0(ouch!). Add to it, my course has a retention policy, which means that I have to strive extra hard. Aiming for the gold is a tough battle. You have many subjects to study, projects to finish, exams to pass and a lot more. How I wish I'm really that intelligent to accomplish anything, everything, unfortunately, I am not:(
       For now, I know I'm really not that good. But I just can't let myself be the wallflower. I have to take a step forward. I have to find ways to make things better. In short, I have keep my mind on track, focus on what I want, and a lot of prayers. I know I can be better, all I have to do is find a strong motivation to have that 1.0 grade.

Just A Dream

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Everything was nearly perfect
The feeling was almost magical
The day I’ve been waiting for so long is finally here
I’d definitely make time stop if only I could


The falling leaves added to the beauty of the moment
I can hear nothing but your breathing and gentle voice
Having you close beside me used to make me tremble
But now its feels absolutely fine


We were sitting side by side under the shade of the tree
I couldn’t remember how long we’ve been like this
All I know is that I wanted to make this moment longer
Coz I’m not sure if this will ever happen again


Suddenly you hugged me tight like the way I always dreamt of
Then you whispered the words I’ve long been dying to hear
My heart throbbed faster and faster
Everything exactly fit the figments of my imagination


Tears started to flood my eyes
All of a sudden I felt cold
You were no longer beside me
I closed my eyes hoping it would ease my uneasy feeling


Darkness is all I could see when I opened my eyes
The magical feeling was gone
I was alone in my bed hugging my pillow tightly
Then I realized, everything was a just a dream.

A Goodbye Note

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i want to cry, but i couldn’t. My roommates will definitely ask me why and i don’t what to tell them.

i want to scream, but i can’t. I’ll disturb everyone from their peaceful dreams.

and the only thing I could do is to write what I feel…

goodbye!!!

i’ve prepared myself for this day but sometimes preparations can’t assure you that you won’t get hurt. I know i’m not perfect as you are, but somewhere between those walls that divides us, I fell in love with you… I knew that wasn’t a nice move, but by the time I realized what I was getting myself into, it was too late. I can’t stop my emotions anymore. I was stupid to believe that you’ll even notice me and that’s what hurts me the most, because I made myself believe that maybe I’ll be a part of your goodbyes and thank yous…but I wasn’t…and it really hurts. I was stupid, yes i am, but from now on, you won’t be interrupting my mind and you won’t hurt me anymore.

goodbye!!! but my heart still longs for you…i want to see you for the last time, even for a short while…

my head aches…my heart breaks… i need to sleep…how i wish by the time i wake up tomorrow, i won’t feel this pain anymore…

Let's Both Move On

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I said I’ve moved on. I said I was over him. Or maybe that was what I thought.

Every now and then he’ll try to reconnect with me. It’s been a year since the last time we checked on each other. I already convinced myself that it’s time to forget him, move on with my life, and find a new inspiration, perhaps. But his messages kept bothering me. Ok, it irritates me. Why? Because I’m doing all my best to forget him and then here he is, distracting my concentration.




I still care for him though, how ironic! He was my friend. He was there to cheer me up when I’m down. But I just have to move on. I need to focus on my studies. Can’t he understand that?

Some people say that when you love someone,you will never stop loving him. Your feelings are just there, though only a very small portion of your heart still loves him. And I think I would agree with that.

He have to move on. He needs to find someone better than me. He needs someone who would love him the way he should have been love. I've fallen out of love with him, and he should accept that. 

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