Another Vacant Afternoon

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I'm glad I have time to write this blog. I should be preparing for my Math100 (Calculus) class, but my classmate informed me that we wouldn't have class, AGAIN. 


I've been in love with Math for years. I always prioritize it. But this semester, I find it weird for my interest in the subject to slip.  I always make it a point not to be absent in Math classes before. But now, it's weird since I have been absent for 2 meetings, and it's not because I was sick (which was most common reason why I've had absences in my Math classes before). I just wanted to prioritize another subject of mine. That's new!

My Math teacher is actually very good. She is very considerate. But she's not that good in explaining matters regarding the subject, I think.

Also, she is ALWAYS absent, and I'm not use to teachers like that. Because of her absences, we are VERY late in our lessons. My other batch mates had taken their 3rd and 4th long exams, while we our class hadn't even finished discussing  elessons for our third long exams. Great!

Because we have to make up for the times she was absent, we have to meet this Saturday, which is my brother's birthday! Dammit! I will miss his birthday for the sake of our make-up class. And we are to have our 3rd long exam on SUNDAY! Imagine?! Sunday!

That's it. I have to go. My bed is calling for me. It's time for a nap:)

Swimming for a Passing Grade II

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I'm really desperate to learn swimming. I'm desperate not to get a 5 or an INC. So I enrolled myself in a swimming lesson ( with my not parents knowing it). Good thing, my teacher is a lot better than my PE teacher. The problem is, I can't learn the strokes perfectly within just 2 weeks. Yeah, its only 2 weeks 'til my finals in PE.  Adding insult to injury, I'm not a fast learner when it comes to sports, that's why I never really dreamed of being a sporty gal. 

I don't know what future awaits me after my final exams. But I just do hope, that I'll pass this swimming class of mine.:)I hope I can swim 4 lapses of the length of Sarabia's pool for each of the three different strokes. 

That's it for now. I'm feeling better after writing this. I still need to make that damn speech for my Econ11 class. 


Ohayou gozaimasu!

Too Bad for It Was Just a Dream

8:32:00 PM ivannejuare 0 Comments

Last night, I had a dream. At first, I thought it will be dream not worth replaying, but I was wrong.

I was in a familiar room with my classmates. I can't remember perfectly all the details from the start until the middle, but the scenes at the end made my heart beat fast. You were there, I can't remember if you were there from the start though. So what if you were there? It doesn't make sense at all to me, especially since I've moved on in reality. But my friends, still thinking I'm still in love with you, conspired to leave you and me, alone in the room. At first I haven't noticed it. Gosh I'm so stupid. But when I finally realized it, they closed the door and won't let me go. I really wanted to escape but you hold my hand and stopped me. We stayed inside for I don't know how many minutes, but something inside me twinged. It's like my heart wanted to scream something. But I just can figure it out.

And so I woke up. Not realizing that it was a dream. I almost thought it was real. It was then that I grasped why my heart twinged.All this time, I was wrong. I haven't moved on. A portion of my heart still belongs to you, not big enough as it was before. I miss you. Sometimes, there were those days that I wished we could cross paths. A simple hello, just like before, will make me happy, but not as happy as before. 

Sadly, until now, my heart can't decide who I love more, if it's you or him. Is it possible that the heart would beat for two different and entirely opposite individuals at the same time? It's been a long time and I'm still confused. My dreams of you makes me wish it was real, same as my dreams of him:(

Too bad it was just a dream. Why can't it come to reality? Oh! How I wish it would...

Swimming for a Passing Grade:(

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I have tons of things to do for tomorrow, so I need to charge my energy. I have a report for my Lit2 class, an exam in Hum1 and PRE-REGISTRATION for next semester. Ooohh..Unfortunately, my Lit2 class and the pre-reg starts at the same time. What should I do? I'll think about that later. Haha!

For now,I just feel the urge to create this blog, if not, my thoughts would distract me from studying for my exam in Hum1. 

I've always wanted to be engaged in some sports, but I wasn't given the skills. Like most schools, UPV requires us to take PE classes. There are various sports to choose from, but given the number of students wanting the slot, enrolling in the class you are really interested in is, for me, a matter of luck. Ok, what's my point? Originally, I wanted to enroll in Badminton class, but there aren't any,so I chose swimming(oh no!). I really want to learn how to swim, so I thought it was ok. Everything was ok, at first.

As classes begun, I realized I was the only one who doesn't know how to swim(too bad). Add to it, I'm a slow learner when it comes to sports. And now, as the semester is nearing its end, I'm facing a bad situation. I don't much about the strokes, and I don't think I can swim the length of Sarabia's swimming pool for 4 times, without stopping at the middle. Oops! Now I really smell danger. It's either I get a 5 or an INC. Either way, it won't be nice for me:( 

Oh God! Please help me! I really need to pass this Swimming class of mine:(

My Cardcaptor Sakura Picture Collection:)

1:41:00 AM ivannejuare 0 Comments

As I've said, I'm a great fan of CCS. So, as part of my obsession, I keep on searching, reading and downloading stuffs related to CCS. For the record, I've watched the whole anime 4 times, and the 2 CCS movies, despite the slow internet connection. That's how addicted I am. Plus, I have a complete picture of the clow cards, and lots of CCS pictures. I really don't know why I am addicted to CCS though. Here are some of my favorite CCS pictures.












Well,that's for now. It's almost 2 am. I need to rest. 
Oyasuminasai!:)

Aiming for 1.0

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        Living a life of pressures ain't that easy. You have to do this and that, just to impress those people who expect too much from you. People might say, "Why do you have to meet their expectations? You don't have to be somebody else for them to appreciate you." Well, they're right. But sometimes, pressure is good. They make you exceed your limits. They sort of challenge you to be better. And the reason why I want to meet their expectations is just simple: I just want to prove to myself that I can be better. 
       Well, studying in UP(gasp! UP) isn't at all easy. Terror teachers are around to give you that heartbreaking 5.0(ouch!). Add to it, my course has a retention policy, which means that I have to strive extra hard. Aiming for the gold is a tough battle. You have many subjects to study, projects to finish, exams to pass and a lot more. How I wish I'm really that intelligent to accomplish anything, everything, unfortunately, I am not:(
       For now, I know I'm really not that good. But I just can't let myself be the wallflower. I have to take a step forward. I have to find ways to make things better. In short, I have keep my mind on track, focus on what I want, and a lot of prayers. I know I can be better, all I have to do is find a strong motivation to have that 1.0 grade.

Just A Dream

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Everything was nearly perfect
The feeling was almost magical
The day I’ve been waiting for so long is finally here
I’d definitely make time stop if only I could


The falling leaves added to the beauty of the moment
I can hear nothing but your breathing and gentle voice
Having you close beside me used to make me tremble
But now its feels absolutely fine


We were sitting side by side under the shade of the tree
I couldn’t remember how long we’ve been like this
All I know is that I wanted to make this moment longer
Coz I’m not sure if this will ever happen again


Suddenly you hugged me tight like the way I always dreamt of
Then you whispered the words I’ve long been dying to hear
My heart throbbed faster and faster
Everything exactly fit the figments of my imagination


Tears started to flood my eyes
All of a sudden I felt cold
You were no longer beside me
I closed my eyes hoping it would ease my uneasy feeling


Darkness is all I could see when I opened my eyes
The magical feeling was gone
I was alone in my bed hugging my pillow tightly
Then I realized, everything was a just a dream.
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